… When you finally realise that there are no guarantees… Disappointed in anyones reliability. When all your schemes collaps. When no plans work. When your vision gets narrowed down to your nose and any predictions begins start to let you down.
All your fears will come to the surface. All your knowledge will seem useless for you. Your legs will be unstable and you will be stagger in the street. You will lose your words. You will experience the absens of rules.
You will do something that used to be unthinkable for you. You will say good –bye to all the laggage of your stereotypes and beliefs. And than you will weep over the years you wasted believing in this stereotypes and beliefs.
You will feel lonely in this huge ocean of choice. You will see how many different ways there are. You will get terrified of fact that now you must choose your own way by yourself. And it will be a blined path. Because you have never been there. And you don’t know what it is like.
And because of that you get overwhelmed with great interest and fear at the same time.
Once you stop being surprised with peoples behavior and stop judging them. Because you have stop understanding what is right. Everything is right. And you don’t need to change anyone.
And then the most horrible understanding will come. Understanding that you are free. And then they tell you: ”Congratulations! The way out of scenario looks like this”. And you will think that they are laught at you.
And you will cry badly. Is this something you have been trying to achieve for so long?
What you have been dreaming and thinking of? Is this the freedom everybody talking about?
Your brain will boiled. And than you will get tired of being tense, disappointed and controlling. And you will relax. And will trust the things happening.
And will hear anew this fashionable word “the flow”.
And at this moment wish what ever you like. Everything will come true down to the last inch.